Wo Jo Hum Mein Tum Mein Qaraar Tha

Dreams.

Bad dreams aren’t good for the soul. It’s like feeding your mind the worst of your imagination. Of all the things that one could think of, to think of being stranded in a land you don’t recognize and no familiar faces- that’s the dream I fear the most. Because reality isn’t very different a lot of times. Somewhere I think I’ve left behind that spark in me to look for magic. I started to believe in magic when I was about ten or eleven and for a very long time I did not stop. It didn’t matter what came my way.

But then I came across the real world. And saw real things. And the magic began to fade. So did my belief in it.

Not that everything’s bad and ugly now- no. But it’s just ordinary.

There are days when ordinary is beautiful too, and then there are some when all I want to do is smash it against a wall and never look at it again. The feeling of being distant from everything. From the silly old dreams I had as a child to the frilly old ideas I had of life until a few years ago. I don’t recognize them anymore. It’s like it wasn’t even me.

I don’t remember much it seems.

And on some days, I painstakingly remember it all. Such.. is life.

A very happy birthday to the beautiful Beghum Akhtar! I recently discovered her ghazals and I can’t stop feeling uneasy because- well, they’re beautiful. Penned by Momin Khan Momin, here’s it:

Wo Jo Hum Mein Tum Mein Qaraar Tha

Wo jo hum mein tum mein 
Qaraar tha
Tumhe yaad ho
Ke na yaad ho

(Qaraar: peace)

The little piece of calmness
That you and I shared
Maybe you remember it
Or maybe you don’t

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Wahi yaani-vaada
Nibah ka
Tumhein yaad ho
Ke na yaad ho

(vaada: promise) (nibah: to walk through it)

The very promise
That we made to each other
I wonder if you remember to go through with it
Or you don’t

Wo naye gile
Wo shikayatein
Wo maze maze ki hikaayatein

(hikaayatein: stories)

All the new regrets in life
All the complaints
The stories of all the fun we had

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Wo har ek baat pe roothna
Tumhein yaad ho 
Ke na yaad ho

And how we’d get mad at the smallest of things
I don’t know if you remember them at all
Maybe you don’t

Wo jo hum mein tum mein..
Whatever little there was left between us..

Kabhi hum mein tum mein bhi
Chahat thi
Kabhi hum se tum se bhi
Raah thi

There was a time, I know
When we did love each other
When there was always a way
For both of us to find each other again

Kabhi hum bhi tum bhi
The aashna
Tumhein yaad ho
Ke na yaad ho

(aashna: the most intimate friend)

Sometimes I know I was
And sometimes you were
The closest one in each other’s lives
You may remember it
Or.. maybe not.

Wo jo hum mein tum mein..
Well, whatever that was between the both of us..

Jise aap ginte the aashna
Jise aap kehte the ba-wafa
Main wahi hun ‘Momin’-e-mubtala
Tumhein yaad ho 
Ke na yaad ho

(ba-wafa: faithful) (‘Momin’-e-mubtala- ‘Momin’- the obsessed)

The one you believed was your dearest
The one you had complete faith on
I’m the one, Momin- the obsessed one
Do you remember?
Or you don’t?

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Wo jo hum mein tum mein
Qaraar tha
Tumhein yaad ho 
Ke na yaad ho

That peace that you and I shared
I don’t think you remember it
Or maybe you do

Wo jo hum mein tum mein..

That thing we shared..

Devnagri:

वो जो हम में तुम में
क़रार था
तुम्हें याद हो
या न हो

वही यानी-वादा
निबाह का
तुम्हें याद हो
या न हो

वो नए गिले हो
वो शिकायतें
वो मज़े मज़े की हिकायतें

वो हर एक बात पर रूठना
तुम्हें याद हो
या न हो

वो जो हम में तुम में

कभी हम में तुम में भी
चाहत थी
कभी हम से तुम से भी
राह थी

कभी हम भी तुम भी
थे आशना
तुम्हें याद हो
या न हो

वो जो हम में तुम में..

जिसे तुम गिनते थे आशना
जिसे आप कहते थे बा-वफ़ा
मैं वही हूँ ‘मोमिन’-इ-मुब्तला
तुम्हें याद हो

वो जो हम में तुम में..

 

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